umm… I’m not drunk

Tonight after work I met my boyfriend for some drinks at his friends house. People say things sometimes when they are think your drunk because they think your drunk and your not…

Tonight my boyfriends friend said “I want to f*** your face… And your a$$”. How the flipp am I supposed to respond to that?!?!?!

I just pretended I was drunk


More Updates to my life

I  still love the new job.

Me and the babysitter have been going to the lake a lot since its summer. We have also been just going out a lot like to a bar or a club.

The house is pretty much clean all the time.

I still can’t cook and I’m still a lazy bum. I’ve been gaining weight… I have flipping Celsius now! How the heck did that happen when I’m only like 115 lbs?

I have no money now because the new job doesn’t pay well… its been really hard because I’m somewhat of a shopaholic

As far as frizzy lizzy goes I do shave my legs but lately I haven’t been feeling girly. I need to start doing my hair or something.

School starts again in about a month. I’m nervous because I’ve been out for a while. but I’m only taking two classes. Managerial Accounting and Calculus

I’m going to a community college for business then I’m going to transfer to a university.

Still have no friends really just my family and my boyfriends friends. (sometimes I still say babysitter but I think we are close enough for me to call him my boyfriend. Its been three years already!)


Ok so there are the updates. Looks like I still need to start cooking and working out and make sure I do good in school. Maybe make a friend from class and doing girly things or something


Oh and budget! I need to start budgeting like crazy because I got a huge pay cut but I still want to do everything I do! I’ve heard is a good place but I’m also a little scarred of putting my bank account into that site. I used to go to this blog calls wisebread and get some ideas from there. Look like I got to start that again.

Honest awful truth about pain/pride

I’ve always had lower back pain. When I told my doctor about it she told me to just stretch out my back. That’s usually been working but two weeks ago it wasn’t and my back was in so much pain I was crying. So yet another reason I was crying at work but not because of the usual reason. I had to leave early that day. I slept over at my mom’s house because she had pain meds and she said she didn’t want me driving on those pills (first night without my babysitter). The next day I went to the doctors only to find out…


My dad quit his job. Meaning I have no insurance. Perfect timing right? But thank God for my flexible spending account. And I applied for insurance with my job but it won’t kick in until May 1st… Stupid! Anyway my doctor didn’t have any appointments (not until the 30th!) so I went to the urgent care. They just said I irritated my sciatic nerve somehow.


I decided to pull an FMLA claim. Not for what I thought it would be (my depression) but I couldn’t function on the muscle relaxers the doc gave me so I couldn’t work. So I have to get my primary doctor to fill out some forms (the doctor at the urgent care refused to fill out any paperwork for me!).

I was seriously worried about my back pain because when it happened it was the most painful thing I ever felt. My right foot has been numb since it happened. It’s since faded to only my pinky toe and the ball of my foot. But the pain part has gone away. I looked up my symptoms and there are a few things that could be happening. One just my sciatic nerve is still irritated, two a slipped disk in my back, or early signs of multiple sclerosis. Sciatic never not to big of a deal but the other two are.


Here’s the honesty part. Read with caution! The only reason I’m saying it is because I’m anonymous on here. Anyway, The kind of FMLA I applied for is the kind where you can leave at any time. Here it is guys: I wish it was something… more… serious. If I was then I could leave work at anytime and… people would worry about me more.


The more I write this blog the more I hate myself. A lot of self-realization going on here.

Not so Exciting Interview

I got an interview on Monday! Well… It’s with a temp agency so not really real employment , but hey anything to get away from the customer abuse! I should be happy I even got considered.

I had to take an excel test and I only got one answer wrong so that’s good! When I go in on Monday I also have to take a personality test. I hate those. Of course I answer honestly so if they don’t pick me it’s like… ugh sorry for being myself?


Side note, my sister S got me to start watching Gossip Girl and its ridiculous! If my future kids are anything like that I’ll probably be in jail for beating my kids. How can kids be so ungrateful? But then again here I am complaining about an interview with a temp agency and at the same time crying about the job I have… hmmmm


Lesson to Learn : Gratefulness

4 1/2 hours later —> lasagna

I made this!!! Yes me! The same girl who has ruined eggs! I made lasagna!

lasagna lasagna 2

I don’t usually eat lasagna but a friend at work said it was easy to make. It’s not. Well maybe it is if you use canned sauce but I wanted to really cook and using store brought sauce is cheating.  So I made everything on my own! I was so proud of myself. It came out tasting ok. Ok? Well it’s not the best lasagna I’ve ever tasted but it is the best lasagna I’ve ever made (yes, it’s the only one I’ve ever made).


The recipe says it takes 3 hours and 15 min but it took me about 4 and a half. All the chopping and mixing and stirring and coming back to the recipe to make sure I’m doing it right is what took up the most time.  But when it was all finished I’m happy with it! Yay!!!!


I want to do more…. Women stuff so this is the start.

“I mean its crazy, we finish each others” “sandwiches”


Great Acting

Back story if you don’t read all my blogs since the very first day (come on get over yourself you only have 100 followers). I watch Netflix like crazy! Usually a series and I watch like a whole season in 2 or 3 days. I’ve been watching Malcolm in the Middle. I remember seeing it when I was younger and I wanted to start it from the beginning to follow all the characters. I’m loving it! On season 6 by the end of the night I’ll probably start season 7 and finish it. Wow I’m so lame….

Anyway my babysitter watches it with me sometimes because its not really a show that you have to watch from the beginning.

He says,”cool Heisenberg”

I think, “ummmm…. What?”

he reads my mind, “that’s the same actor Brian Cranston”

I’m seriously blown away. Hats off to Brian Cranston. His acting is so good I can’t even tell that Hal and Walter are the same guy because the characters are so different! Just thought I would share that with my 100 followers. Image


New Years resolutions suck!!! I didn’t finish mine that I had, well I still have all year lol . But I wanted to start making monthly goals. I can make them tie in with the resolutions.  I have been using google newstand and I love it! I’ve been reading about how people get successful and happy and what not. Makes goals is one of them. I’m going to try and do this every month and check back on it. This is like the first time trial run


  • Make lunch
    • I buy stuff to make my lunch then I let it rot in the fridge while I’m going to carls jr.
      • I’m going to  put alarm on my phone every day reminding me to make my lunch


  • Get up
    • I wake usually around noon but then I stay in bed till 2 just staring at my phone (part of that time is my google newstand!!! How ironic that the thing that is helping me become a better person is also the thing that makes me waste all my time in bed!).
      • Same thing alarm on my phone. One to wake up and then another one about 30 minutes later to get up


  • Do stuff
    • At the end of the week I’m shocked that I’ve done absolutely nothing. Then , especially with homework, I’m frantically trying to do everything last minute. Even if  I don’t have anything to do I want to say that I did something all week!
      • Work on the back yard. I’ve been doing that on my days off and its fun
      • Do homework!!! I want to do one thing school related everyday.
      • Apply for more jobs
      • Make a to do list everyday and put stuff on calendar appointments


I know I know, everyone hates it but it’s time for New Year’s resolutions. No idea why everyone hates it. Yeah some of them won’t last but some of them do right? I always make them. So before I go into this year’s resolution let’s review last years.


For one I started writing again. It was my goal to write at least once a month on this blog and I’ve done that!


I wanted to save at least $1200 by the end of 2013. That would be 100 every month and I ended up saving $1300!

Another one of my resolutions was to give more. In 2013 I gave more to my nephews and to my sister and to my missionary friend.


I wanted to start working out more and to eat healthy and to cook. OK I know I didn’t start working out more. That one only happened for the first few months of 2013 but the eating healthy part did last all year! Except the cooking part. I don’t think throwing spinach and veggies in a bowl is really cooking.


I had a resolution to stop complaining but I didn’t meet that one at all. Actually I think that one got worse…


I wanted to read more. Since before I wasn’t reading at all, I did accomplish this one because I finished two books and still trying to finish one more.

OK Now for this year.

  1. Health
    1. This one is not really for the whole year but every time I start it I fail so I wanted to really commit to it. That being the Love Your Body Challenge by Tone It Up
    2. Cook a new recipe

i.      Since last year I failed this one I’m going to make it more specific. I want to make at least 1 new dish (not microwavable) once every two months. ( I started that today)

  1. Go for walks. Maybe just around the neighborhood or even in the mall to go shopping!
  2. Mental stuff
    1. Be more grateful

i.      Say thank you and really mean it to people

  1. Look them in the eye when you say it

ii.      At least weekly take the time to reflect on everything I have and thank God for it

  1. Meet with the counselor at least once a month until I feel better for at least 4 consecutive months. I hate feeling depressed every month and I’m sure it’s because I only see my counselor when I need her instead of regularly.
  2. Leave the country
    1. I want to go on a cruise. If not for sure use my passport to travel (that’s what I wanted to save money for in my 2013 resolution).
    2. Make a friend. I really don’t have any close friends. The ones I have aren’t to trust worthy…

OK I think that’s if, of course if I think of any more I’ll post them.

License to Ignorance

So I got pulled over the other night.

Officer: I pulled you over because your license plate is expired.

Me (in my head) : what you have to renew that?

Me: what!?

Officer: yeah can I see your registration?

Me: **hand the cop my info

Officer: yeah it says right here expires March 2013

I seriously laughed out loud. No joke I thought once you register your car you don’t have to do it anymore. I distinctly remember getting a notice in the mail (it is sent to my mom’s house but I still go over and get it) and being like, “Oh this must be a scam it says you have to pay to register your car!”. I got home and told my babysitter about it and never felt so…. young? No that’s not it…. childish. How could I be so ignorant!?

Anyway I paid for it online and got it today. One hundred and some odd dollars later  (including a big late fee)  my car is registered with the sate again.

Lesson to Learn: check the expiration date!


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